An Experiment in Non-Smoking (II): Six Stabbings

Not conventional drawings (I also do those), but compulsive carving and scratching. I’ve started calling them ‘stabbings’ since the gestures performed when I make them resemble, I think, the act of stabbing someone (perhaps oneself).

This series of six stabbings, made in one of those tiny notepads found in hotel rooms, were executed successively during a particularly difficult evening of the last week in Antwerp.

When I look at them in progression, it does seem to me that I’m reaching for something, but don’t ask me what exactly. I’m not well when I do these. It just feels better than hitting your head against a wall. And as I get more and more tired while scratching, I start to feel a bit calmer.

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© Cristina Álvarez López, July 2019